Selena Gomez spoke again about her health and expressed concern about her offspring. Namely, the doctors told her that she might not be able to have children, because she takes medication for bipolar disorder. “That’s a very big, big present thing in my life,” the actress, 30, told Rolling Stone for her December 2022 cover story, published Thursday.
“However I’m meant to have them, I will”. Four years ago, doctors prescribed her numerous types of medication after a psychotic episode and a diagnosis of bipolar disorder. He is currently taking only two medications.
“I had to detox, essentially, from the medications I was on,” the “Same Old Love” singer recalled to the magazine. “I had to learn how to remember certain words. I would forget where I was when we were talking”.
“There was no part of me that was there anymore,” she said. In the documentary "Selena Gomez: My Mind & Me", she stated that her mental health was extremely poor and that she felt like she was "slowly fading away"
Now she tries to look at life on the bright side and hopes to get married and become a mother soon. “I hope to be married and to be a mom,” she said in August.
Selena Gomez speaks out about her bipolar disorder
"I’m going to be very open with everybody about this: I’ve been to four treatment centers," she said.
"I think when I started hitting my early 20s is when it started to get really dark, when I started to feel like I was not in control of what I was feeling, whether that was really great or really bad." she revealed.
“I never fit in with a cool group of girls that were celebrities. My only friend in the industry really is Taylor [Swift], so I remember feeling like I didn’t belong. I grew up thinking I would be married at 25. It wrecked me that I was nowhere near that — couldn’t be farther from it.
It was so stupid, but I really thought my world was over”. Her career as an actor and musician was thriving, and she said, "I was really happy, but … was I? Do these materialistic things make me happy? I just didn’t like who I was, because I didn’t know who I was”.
Selena revealed she didn't have the strength to get out of bed or to talk. “It would start with depression, then it would go into isolation. Then it just was me not being able to move from my bed," she revealed.
"I didn’t want anyone to talk to me. My friends would bring me food because they love me, but none of us knew what it was. Sometimes it was weeks I’d be in bed, to where even walking downstairs would get me out of breath”.
she said. She hopes her new documentary will shed light on a mental health condition "Because I have the platform I have, it’s kind of like I’m sacrificing myself a little bit for a greater purpose. I don’t want that to sound dramatic, but I almost wasn’t going to put this out. God’s honest truth, a few weeks ago, I wasn’t sure I could do it."