Selena Gomez has opened up again about her battle with bipolar disorder, revealing that she's been in four treatment centers. The documentary about the life of Selena "My Mind & Me" is released tomorrow, and on this occasion the actress gave an interview to Rolling Stone and told what the dark period in her early twenties looked like.
"I’m going to be very open with everybody about this: I’ve been to four treatment centers," she said. "I think when I started hitting my early 20s is when it started to get really dark, when I started to feel like I was not in control of what I was feeling, whether that was really great or really bad."
she revealed. “I never fit in with a cool group of girls that were celebrities. My only friend in the industry really is Taylor [Swift], so I remember feeling like I didn’t belong. I grew up thinking I would be married at 25.
It wrecked me that I was nowhere near that — couldn’t be farther from it. It was so stupid, but I really thought my world was over”. Her career as an actor and musician was thriving, and she said, "I was really happy, but … was I? Do these materialistic things make me happy? I just didn’t like who I was, because I didn’t know who I was”.
Selena revealed she didn't have the strength to get out of bed or to talk.
“It would start with depression, then it would go into isolation. Then it just was me not being able to move from my bed," she revealed.
"I didn’t want anyone to talk to me. My friends would bring me food because they love me, but none of us knew what it was. Sometimes it was weeks I’d be in bed, to where even walking downstairs would get me out of breath”.
she said. She hopes her new documentary will shed light on a mental health condition "Because I have the platform I have, it’s kind of like I’m sacrificing myself a little bit for a greater purpose. I don’t want that to sound dramatic, but I almost wasn’t going to put this out. God’s honest truth, a few weeks ago, I wasn’t sure I could do it."