Hayden Panettiere on her battle with postnatal depression

"You're like, 'I should be able to get over this all by myself"

by Sead Dedovic
Hayden Panettiere on her battle with postnatal depression

Hayden Panettiere spoke to the media about the postnatal depression she was struggling with. Panettiere started using substances to help herself, but it didn't help her. Her daughter, Kaya, is eight years old today. "I thought there was something seriously wrong with me, so I thought, "Fireball will fix this—duh!" And it didn't.

It does for a moment, but then it makes everything worse. And then it hurts for you. You're like, 'I should be able to get over this all by myself'," she told E! The Rundown, as quoted by mirror.co.uk Hayden seemed to have too high expectations of herself and her role as a mother.

She didn't know how things would look, and everything seemed new to her. "I wish somebody told me that that was a possibility, told me it's OK if you birth your child and you're not immediately like, 'Oh my god, I love you more than anything in the entire world!' It's OK and not abnormal if [your baby] comes out and it's a blob, and you're like, 'Oh my gosh, this is like a crazy little creation that I'm going to love when I get to know you.'


Hayden Panettiere on the media pressure

Hayden also talked about the momentum when Klitschko got custody of Kaya. The media then put a lot of pressure on her. The headlines that appeared at the time affected Hayden and her depression.

"The idea that I’m a person who would just easily throw out my child, give away my child," Hayden said. "The comments that people made, or things that they assumed about my situation with my daughter were just so…heartbreaking There was a cover of a magazine, I was walking through the airport, it said something like, ‘Why Hayden chose to give up her daughter.’ I was just like, this is so misrepresented.

People are like, ‘How dare you, you’re a horrible mother, I could never do that to my child.’ So it was tough and it took me a long time to be able to talk about it."